....I don't know what's wrong with me. I always refuse every request to make a friend....

"It was  saturday night when I saw you cry with a bloody body under the tree in Westhump street". Those words keep stay in my head. She has successed to make me feel interested. Did she know me???? I decide to ask her tomorrow.
"Hey Hanna, I'm so sorry for becoming bad to you all this time". "Are you? I'm so glad to hear 'bout it, why do you change your mind? It's not because what I said yesterday, is it?". "No, mmm... but it's right. When the first time you've ever saw me?". "Actually we were in the same elementary school when  we were nine years old, but maybe you didn't remember me because I had to move". "So, you were kind of silent girl in the class at that time". "Yeah and you were kind of good girl at that time". Why she said 'bout the past?. "Oooops, I'm so sorry but that's the reality I know at that time".........

.......There's nothing in this world that can make me belivin'...
I forgot what's she said as easy as I'm eating. I rather choose to think 'bout the semester test than 'bout her talking. Tomorrow will be held a math and ITC test, so I study hard to understand 'bout 3D. I have to get the best in chemie class. I have to know who have saved me from that terrible night. How's if Hanna has saved me? She's like to know much 'bout my past. I really hate her.
Oh no! She's again, where I can hide? In the lavatory? It's so mad. Why I feel so afraid if meet her, she's nothing to me but she has no scare to look right in my eyes. Oh, she sees me.... "Jane! Where'll you go? I want to meet you!". I leave her and she run to me.
"Oh Jane why do you look so shy? I'm must to be so beautiful, right? Look at you! You're so beautiful too". She's kind of unembarrased girl. "Leave me! Now!"......

... Yesterday I said about Bart that he always smile forever. How about us?.....
"Ok, I know that you want to be the one of mine, but she atracted me". "Oh, you're so cute, I love you so. It's being so hard to leave you in my room alone. Bye, bye!".
"Jane! Jane! Hey, is there any homework? I don't remember because last night I went out with my family, we tried a new restaurant. Would you like to visit it some day with me?". Oh she calls me again, what she wants? "Hey! Listen to me, I won't be yoour friends, I have my own world and you can't enter it. Good bye!".  I hope she will stop to bother me.
In this time Mr Lee just teach 'bout unimportant thing, I'm so bored, he teach what I've ever read and I thousand times understand it better than him. He's wrong at least to times when he says 'bout Black law. "Mr. Lee I'm so sorry to say 'bout you. You're wrong Black has made this law based on energy law it's not on Maxwell law. I see no connection between them". "Thanks Jane!".
What will I do this night? Learning chemie? Reading novel? Watching film? I really don't know. Hey, I never feel boring for along time, why it has to appear this night? I decide to sleep early and hope I will forgot my bored.
"Jane! What do you think 'bout visiting mall this evening? I want to buy some clothes. Today is my birthday, please go with me, you don't want to be an evil girl, do you?". Oh she's again, why she has to say 'bout evil? ...

Ok... we begin to talk 'bout our destination in life. There are so many ways to get success, but if we wanna choose the right one, we have to pass a lot of difficult way.
"Jane...Jane! You are Jane Millestone, aren't you?". I walk faster and faster, but I can't run. She reach me and touch my shoulder. "Hey why do you always escape from me? I wanna be your friends. I'm Hanna Bearthly, I'm a new student here and I have no friends.". "So what's your bussines on me, I have no bussines on you..". " What??? I said that I wanted to be your friends. What's wrong with you? Are you kind of temperament girl?". " Yeah, and what will you do?". "I still want to be your friends, Jane. There's no problem if you have a bad past experience. me too..." . Oh no! She makes me wanna hear, but I keep walking and leave her alone in the crowded.
"Bart, what do you think about make a friends. It's so bad, isn't it?". I touch my Bart nose and he just smile and always smile forever..... 

Ok, I'm going to tell you about my little secret. Ummmm.... I said that I had ever felt love. I know love is kind of difficult feeling that uneasy to understand. Hmmmm.. Tara is so sad now, her laptop is broken. She just plays the guitar with sad chords. She sits quietly and her eyes show what happened. Her heart is burning inside and I don't know what I have to do. Maybe I can't tell 'bout my secret now. I want Tara becomes happy again as usual.
She's looked so down, I want to help her but I can't. I just look her and feel the same. What you feel if the most important thing of your life is broken by its self. Fredy said that it was because its system and we have to change or reinstall it. How much you can pay for the feeling of losing? Maybe it's like you 're on the worst condition and there's nothing to do. Fredy has left us and goes to somewhere. Oh, Tara never shows me that face! I can do nothing, never makes me feel this way. I'm over on act.
Now she reads her biology book, she has a daily test tomorrow. Today, at school was held achivement student competition, I hope my friend was but he wasn't. Tara touchs her eyes, hopefully she's not crying, oh she just feel a little bit sleepy. Noone can understand someone at all, but there's no wrong if you want to try ro put your feeling on their condition. I have no bussines on you, but I just want to tell you this story and hope you get the advanteges from it. Thanks for reading and bye.

I think today is a dark day for me, I woke up late and of course will be late at school. I can imagine the anger of my teacher passes through my mind and breaks every nerve. I now you may think that I'm so strange and look so scared just because of my teacher. Actually I'm not kind of an ordinary girl, I'm one-legged and so I can't walk as fast as the other people. I've tried hard to run but it was so difficult and then I just can walk slowly based on my false leg.
I am Jane Millestone and now I'm about 17 y.o and certainly I'm on high school. If you want to know more about me, you can open my owner fb (shoftline@yahoo.co.id) and you'll find my in notes. The truth is I'm not a real character, I'm just a vitrtue but I'm here to entertain and to give support for everyone who needs it. In the past I made a very great mistakes that caused me to be alone, my mom and dad left me because of me, I had no friends until now. Do you know how does it feel? But, it doesn't matter, you're allowed to think that I'm nothing and I'll be allright.
Sometimes I think about the destination of our life and how we walk on it, have you ever thought like that? Mayabe it will bw so pleasure if there's no kid of evil in this world, but that's he justice, the justice sometimes feels so bad. We want our self always be the number one and get the special treatment from our friends but we never do something like that for our friends. What we want and what we never wanted always be similiar but we think it's different. I want to be looked for everyione and I'm sure you want to, but maybe you have not enough that feeling....
I'm tired so we'll discuse it next time.... bye bye...


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Actually... I've tried to make one but it could't use my old email. So I make a new email and start to make blog. It's not too late, is it? I was helped by my friend to make it and she was beside of me when I was making it. Her name is Vina and she has a blog ( crazyvinaaa.blogspot.com). She always laugh at me, especially when I'm angry. I think it's enough for my introduction. bye bye....